Tag Archive: Sees


Manipulation

Day 22 Genesis 30-31

  Boy Howdy if we thought family dysfunction started in the 20th century one needs only to read the book of Genesis!  I scoff at the notion that life was ever any easier “back in the good ol’ days!” Us humans sure do know how to screw life up… and yet God still wants a relationship with us.  I’m thankful God isn’t Human, he would have thrown in the towel on us long ago.

   Rachel and Leah’s attempts to manipulate Jacob’s affection towards them was interesting… Did bearing Jacob many sons help increase his love for Leah?  And what was up with the mandrake?  Why would sex with their husband ever be available for trading in exchange for mandrake… aren’t those the screaming baby plants in Harry Potter?  I’m aware they are real, but if they are THAT good why then don’t we go buy mandrake bars instead of candy bars? Clearly they had yet to discover chocolate, now that I might understand.

   All joking aside, I think affection from our spouse is a touchy issue.  Any attempt to manipulate the person to give affection just makes it that much less genuine, and the need that started the manipulation in the first place grows and grows till it’s really dysfunctional.  Why do we, especially women, have to be so emotionally tied to adoration from our spouse?  Why should our happiness be so linked to being appreciated?  I don’t think manipulation is a solution to the problem.. figuring out where our happiness needs to come from instead might be a better step in the right direction.   Leah was unable to attain Jacob’s primary love even through manipulation, or God blessing her with the ability to bare children.  Was Jacob’s love for Leah what God’s goal He saw that she was not loved and allowed her to conceive?  That’s not the impression I was getting..  I’m working through this in my head but I don’t think I’ve come to a solid conclusion… I do not envy Leah.

On a side note:  reading about this polygamous family does not really sway me to think polygamy is a walk in the park.  Sorry Sister Wives.. I still don’t think more than one wife is a great idea.

Hagar speaks to me

Day 18 Genesis 19-21

   Shesh!  What an interesting read we had today.. Lets see we’ve got an attempt to sodomize angels, an offer of daughter’s to rape in their place, cities destroyed, wives turning to salt, daughters raping their father, and Abraham pimping out his wife again.  There were nice things too.. like Sarah giving birth to Isaac.  .  . but what spoke to me most of all was yet again Hagar.   In contrast to the way man was treating women in these passages take a look at how God treats Hagar.. although He allowed her pain by allowing Abraham to send her away, God tends to her and her son Ishmael. “I’m going to make him a great nation.” Ishmael is widely considered the father of Arabs… Thus making Hagar, the woman who God tended to so lovingly, who named our Creator “the God who Sees me,” she is the “grandmother” to the Arab world.  I am impressed with the softness with which God treated this slave woman. While in her grief and turmoil God speaks to her, reassured her and opens her eyes to a source of water which will save her life.

   Hagar was at the end of her rope, had utterly given up and cried out in sobs and it is in this moment she is receives the blessings of the Lord.  sometimes in the midst of our most difficult times  God’s voice rings out to us as if he’s calling us on a direct line from Heaven.  Those are the times God opens our eyes and we can see clearly what we need to survive one more day, and provide the same for others.   God  shows us the water and from it we take “long cool drinks.”

  I remember once as a teen foolishly going on a hike with a friend named Michael in the mountains and bringing no water.  We were high in the hills when our thirst hit and by the time we were half way back down the mountain we were talking about the water that was waiting for us at the visitors center.  My hiking buddy pointed out how the water we’re about to drink was going to be SO GOOD because we were absolutely desperate for it.  Because of my thirst, that drink of water  was as good as  Michael said it would be. . .it was a drink of water worth remembering.

   When I am in a hypothetical desert in my life, finally willing to give up, crying out.. my God, the God who sees me, the God who tenderly calls out to me will provide a well of water so that I will survive one more day.  From this well I will take long cool drinks and it will be water worth remembering.

El Roi

Instead of many gods, I have one God with many names. Each name highlights a different aspect to our Lord and for the last few years my favorite has been El Roi, the God who sees me.
Hagar was in a terribly lonely place, Again I struggle with Sarai and Abrahams choices… and “helping” God’s promises along according to our timeline never really works out to our advantage. But Hagar was REALLY mistreated as a result, and my heart is just torn for her. But God seeks her out, and she has the honor of being the first woman God speaks to.

      God follows me into my deserts, He speaks to me and He SEES ME unlike anyone else.